“When you remember you are the ocean, you’re not afraid of the waves.” Tara Brach
I might paraphrase and say, “…you’re not afraid of the size of the waves.” Or I might change my point-of-view and wonder why I am not laughing and riding the waves.
I know her point is to remind me that I am source. I am the ocean and the waves are only experiences of “me.”
At some point this past weekend I heard a phrase that struck me so much I told my phone to remind me of it. “Humans advance when they remove themselves from the center of the universe.” Sadly, I didn’t note who said it or what podcast I was listening to when I heard it. Apologies to the speaker.
I thought that if that’s true, it would apply at the micro/personal level, too: I can advance [only] when I remove myself from the center of the universe.
This morning a quote from Cheri Huber landed in my email.
“Disidentifying and stepping back enough to see the difference between the human being and the ego-identity is critical to “saving” the human being.” – Cheri Huber
I remember reading a similar idea — that the ego-identity will kill the host to be right. As anyone who in a twelve-step program knows.
I practiced widening back after encountering these quotes. (I am doing it now!). I shifted my viewpoint to my higher self. Then I shift it to “minding the edges.” Minding the Edges is an Avatar ReSurfacing tool.
I say, “This is weird.” Saying that is a way to ‘create what I am experiencing.’ Try that one!
As much fun as I have ranting lately, I have been moved to some action.
Read my post on Poetiosity.
Today is a new moon. It is also a new year in the Chinese calendar. The western calendar’s new year is barely under way. I’ve noticed all of these and ascribed value to them as I feel that I am on a new part of the cycle. No matter what the label, I do believe our lives move in cycles. My proof for that belief is that we humans are living beings, on a living planet, with other living beings and they all go through cycles. We are a part of that, so we are not exempt. Honoring all parts of that cycle, though, are challenging for me.
In late summer, a group of hawks seemed to be stalking me (in a good way). Yesterday afternoon, leaving my house, I saw this Cooper’s Hawk literally at my front door. In my group of allies, I have a hawk to remind me to “float a while and use your tools.” In some cultures a hawk is a messenger.
I know I did spiritual work differently in 2016 and that may be a part of the updraft I’m feeling. In the last part of the year, I used a coach, am more than half way through working the twelve steps, and had an Avatar Master move to my neighborhood. The first two required work and a big shift for me. I like to think the third was a gift from the other two.
All that work has given me great insights, but the one most valuable is… Ask for help. Find or create allies and ask them for help whenever you feel even the slightest inkling of unknown. Asking for help allows the helper to experience feeling useful and able to give of themselves. Ask non-humans for help. There is wisdom all around you; you just have to be willing to ask for help.
The end of my Page-a-Day Zen Calendar is showing. One more day and 2016 is over. I started planning my next year’s intentions and objectives, and I’ll finalize them this weekend. Today is a day, though, to look back at what’s happened, what I’ve accomplished, felt…
As an adult, I’m annually amazed how quickly a year goes by (and how the heck am I this old??). It’s difficult to see my own growth and change. What I can do is listen to and believe others when they say they see it.
An Avatar acquaintance popped up from a couple years missing and triggered memories of what my life was like when I practiced those tools consistently and I had others with the same skills to meet with and practice. My own recollection of the time was that everything was much smoother, I was happier (i.e., not as angry all the time), and change manifested ‘magically’ [sic].
This is really what my intention is for the next year. Do the practice – daily. I brush my teeth every day. I had to learn that, and now I can’t imagine starting the day without doing it. I make my bed every day. I tried once to leave it unmade and go to work. I made it a few blocks, but was so uncomfortable, I turned back home and make the bed.
I believe this is the key — I need to notice my discomfort and associate the relief with the
tools to practice. Rather than wait for the magical-thinking day of January 1st, I started today. I did two practices. They feel creaky and rusty, but they open up. They are opening me up. I can feel the ice cracking in my chest as I do the exercise Releasing Fixed Attention using a plant in my sunroom.
Crystal Bridges museum in Bentonville, Arkansas, has been open since 2011, and on my “to visit” list since then. I finally got there earlier this week. I had very fortunate timing for unseasonably warm weather and the special exhibit (The Art of Dance in America).
This is a great museum in a lovely location in the Ozarks. I could go on about the collection, the building, and the grounds. Go for a visit! Most of the museum is free, but the special exhibit cost $10 — a bargain.
I noticed that all of the art I looked at in detail triggered new viewpoints for many things. The more art I saw, the more things looked different.